I might have a serious problem.
Some days I am just looking for something I don’t like in worship. I walk into the service, just waiting for that little thing to present itself. I set my expectations (too high) and am quickly let down. So I just shut off, throw my hands up in frustration and think (all too dramatically), “Well, let down once again…”
I realized this the other week when I got hung up on a “typo” on the powerpoint.
The lyrics said “Alleluia.” The worship leader sang “Hallelujah.”
I could feel myself shutting down to worship, and then a little voice inside me screamed, “REALLY?????”
Part of this is what I call the musician’s curse, where my finely educated musical brain (riiiiight…) picks up on such trivial things. Like my number one singing pet peeve (it’s “without YOU,” not “without CHEW.” Enunciate people!!!), sometimes it’s impossible to ignore. But I’ve realized it’s one thing to notice it; it’s another thing to obsess over it.
I can just about guarantee that I am the ONLY one who picked up on that “typo” that morning. Because it was ridiculous and didn’t make a difference. Honestly, the words mean the same. I even googled it.
So what is my issue? Why do I continue to nitpick little things in worship?
I think it’s my too high expectations. I’m trying to enter each church service without judgement. This takes a LOT of effort on my part. Some days I don’t even know how to go about it.
But I suppose admitting I have a problem is the first step.
Question: Is there something silly you’ve nitpicked in worship?